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The Fault In Our Stars 3（主黄赤、黑赤）

DISCLAIMER：I don't own anything of 《The Fault In Our Stars》. 但仍然是出于对原著的尊重，第一次玩就让他们先按原著设定走一遭好了，之后会有沙桑自己臆造的场景……

WARNING：一大波英文君正在接近……沙桑是高三党，所以只要你的英文水平达到高中生水平看懂应该是没问题的……

其实我觉得这是篇议论文我会说么……

好的，辩论赛第一场，赤司巨巨vs黄濑汪汪，过程重要还是结果重要，START！

3、

“Video game ?”赤司挑了挑眉。

 

黄濑走回赤司的身边，不客气地坐上了床沿。“我托朋友从美国买的。小赤司一个人住院，又什么都看不见，如果换成是我的话一定要疯了。这是款声控游戏，专门为视觉障碍者设计，挺容易上手的，但想通关还真不简单。只是日文版的似乎还没有出来，所以这个是英文原版，”黄濑转过头冲赤司一笑，“但对小赤司来说不管是什么语言都没问题吧！”

 

赤司没有说话。他可以想象黄濑正以怎样让花儿都颤抖起来的笑容望着他。暖烘烘的阳光扑在身上，就像是牧羊犬毛糙糙的舌头。

 

怎么办，好想让他下楼去跑50圈。

 

“Deception ,”电视突然说话了，“one player or two ?”

 

“Two .”黄濑回答。“先前我在家里试玩过几次，那个时候就觉得如果能和小赤司一起玩的话一定会非常有趣~”

 

“Player one , identify yourself .”电视。

 

“This is player one’s sexy sexy sexy voice .”黄濑摆了一个非常闪的造型，可惜的是这个房间里没有人能看见。

 

“Player one , name yourself .”电视。

 

“Kise Ryota Sama , I think it’s OK .”

 

“Player two , identify yourself .”

 

“I suppose I would be player two .”赤司打起了点精神。

 

“Player two , name yourself .”

 

“Akashi .”

 

“Please choose one story . a , Attack …”

 

“Just ‘Random’.”黄濑打断了机械女声。因为懒得看说明书+即使看了也看不懂，黄濑可是在家里和这款游戏搏斗了整整3天。所以现在的黄濑凉太已经可以（暂时）趾高气扬地叫她“SHUT UP”了。

 

为了让小赤司觉得黄濑汪汪偶尔也可以很可靠，黄濑凉太可是付出了汗水与泪水（主要是泪水）的努力的！

 

“Kise Ryota Sama I Think It’s OK and Akashi awake in a dark , empty room approximately 12 feet square . ”电视一板一眼地说道。

 

“…12 feet square…”黄濑轻声重复了一遍。“哎？等等，哎哎哎？！”

 

“Kise Ryota Sama I Think It’s OK screamed.”

 

黄濑迅速地抓乱了自己的头发，“所以说等一下啊，为什么会有‘I Think It’s OK’在我的名字里面啊!”

 

“sorry, I don’t understand.”电视表示我听不懂日文。

 

“That is, why my name has ‘I Think It’s OK’ in it?”只会说英文了不起啊什么破游戏！

 

“Because you named yourself that.”

 

“When I said ‘Kise Ryota Sama , I think it’s OK’, I mean I would name myself ‘Kise Ryota Sama’, you idiot.”

 

“You idiot.”虽然不明白是怎么回事但是电视选择了重复黄濑的最后两个词。

 

黄濑扶额。

 

“OK, I’ll let it go. So can I change my name now?”

 

“Sure you can. Player one, name yourself.”

 

“Kise.”

 

“Kise Ryota Sama I Think It’s OK renamed himself Kise. ”

 

“Then where are we now?”

 

“Still in the dark, empty room, you idiot.”

 

谁都别拦我我跟她拼了！黄濑猛地站起身，气冲冲地走到“她”面前，利索地拔掉电源，是的，拔、掉、电、源，因为这是他奋斗3天琢磨出来的唯一有效方法。

 

有时候，黄濑凉太真的可以很、可、靠。

 

赤司轻轻叹了口气，却又莫名觉得心情舒畅了很多。如果把人的内心比作一个奇妙的发酵罐的话，负面情绪就像微生物厌氧呼吸释放出的二氧化碳，带给人窒息感的同时又进一步加剧了厌氧呼吸。于是小小的发酵罐陷入恶性循环，愈来愈多的二氧化碳暴躁地撞击瓶壁，让方寸之地承受着百倍大气压强的拷问。此时，若能松开瓶口旋塞，或是插入一根导气管，那么所有痛苦都将被指引着渐渐消散，发酵罐亦能回归最初的安宁美好。

 

黄濑凉太，在某种意义上，就是这样一根导气管。

 

赤司似乎能够理解为什么初中时代大家都喜欢拿他开涮了。

 

“Welcome again. Continue or restart?”看样子黄濑又连上了电源，平淡地女声再次溜进房间。

 

黄濑犹豫了一会儿，考虑到先前人设过程中的惨痛教训，黄濑决定不再冒险。“Continue.”

 

“Kise and Akashi awake in a dark, empty room.”

 

“Can I turn on the light?”赤司问。

 

“Sorry, but there isn’t a light switch.”

 

“Is there a door?”

 

“Kise locates the door. It is locked.”

 

“Is there a key?”

 

“Akashi searches the room. He finds a key.”

 

“Open the door.”

 

“Akashi opens the door. The darkness is still complete.”

 

“Take out the knife, and leave the room.”

 

“Kise and Akashi dive into the darkness. Suddenly, they hear someone calling for help. ’God,help me！God, help! ’”

 

“What do you think, Akashi-chi?”

 

“It depends. Normally,I’ll just ignore it. After all, it’s none of my business, isn’t it? However, as now I am in the game, I guess I should be more generous. By the way, captain Kise, would you tell me what our aim is now? Raise a rebellion to save the world or just escape from the prison-like building? ”

 

“No, no,”黄濑露出一个狡黠的微笑,”there it is. It has nothing to do with the ‘aim’. Actually, there is no such thing as an aim in this game.”

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“This is a game totally focuses on the process. You don’t know where you are going, what is happening, who you are meeting, but participate in the whole thing. Just like life. You can’t predict or foresee anything. You move on, get trapped, overcome it, keep moving on, and then you’ll see it, the magnificence of life.”

 

赤司的嘴角扬起了一个微妙的弧度，“Is that what you want to say to me? ‘Happiness is in the doing, not getting what you want’, as you have been defeated by Kuroko?” 虽然看上去只是句无关紧要的调侃，与以往的揶揄没什么不同，但黄濑却从赤司不自然上挑的语调中听出了恼意。地狱的前奏。

 

可黄濑并不打算退缩。“Not exactly. I come up with that myself. I do owe it to Kuroko-chi in some degree, but since I have think about it over and over again, I think it doesn’t matter to declare my possession of it. And what I do want to say,Akashi-chi, is that why not forget about the aim temporarily and simply enjoy the fun of the game?”

 

“Ryota, you consider me as such a utilitarian who doesn’t know the significance of the process, right? The fact is, on the contrary, I am quite aware of how important the process is. What I disagree with you is that you overlooked the weight of the goal. You know the meaning of the word ‘process’?  A series of actions which are carried out in order to achieve a particular result. Without a particular aim, you don’t even have the chance to create the process. And you said life can’t be predicted,and that’s not my case. Life is something you can control. When given these exact circumstances, this is what will happen every time. Two parts hydrogen and one part oxygen, you’ll get water every time. ”

 

“但是如果过于注重结果的话经历过程的快乐就会被淡化淹没，一切以目的为前提只会让时间都显得多此一举。人生是需要‘度过’的，直接跳向结局的话，不就成了虚无主义的历史循环了吗？死亡，不就真的成了邪jiao人士口中的解放了吗？”黄濑一着急便用了母语。

 

赤司不紧不慢地回答：“凉太，我说过了，我并不是不看重过程。再辉煌的圣迹也少不了沿途的鲜花与荆棘。只是这一切更需要一个终极理想的引导，有了北斗在天，才更有信心去突破笼罩在前方的重重迷雾，难道不是吗？”

 

“可，可是……”黄濑想反驳，但赤司的理论实在是太完美。眼前略显娇小的少年脊梁挺直，耀眼的红发如同圣座上的火焰恪守其使命要燃尽一切疑虑裁决一切异端。这是他的理念，他的精神支柱。他握着他的权杖栉风沐雨降服了17年的怒海惊涛，踏平了层现叠出的万丈高崖，他站在这里，他傲视群雄。

 

他从来不会错。

 

“凉太，你知道中国一位已故的作家曾说过这么一句话么，‘正是因为知道了死亡是个必然降临的节日，我才安下心来去寻找生活的意义。’”

 

黄濑终于举起了白旗。“好啦我知道了啦我们先把这个话题放在一边好么我快要晕了总之先让我给小赤司证明一下这款游戏的process是多么精彩绝伦丧心病狂令人发指以致可以让人暂时忘记aim怎么样？就当是陪我这个没有目的的浪子被生活劫持一次。”

 

“说来听听。”

 

黄濑转过头对电视喊道：“Kill myself!”

 

“Kise placeshis knife to his neck. Are you sure you——”

 

“What do you think, Akashi-chi?”黄濑冲赤司眨了眨眼。

 

“Well, maybe I’ll help you.”赤司笑了，纯正的英腔清爽柔和，与方才的剑拔弩张截然不同。黄濑一直觉得赤司的声音很好听，像是古神社中借竹节顿挫从高处跃下的泠泠流水，汇入寒潭漾起一树披迷。然而空灵澄澈的结果就是疏离渺远，让人敬而畏之，畏而亦远之。

 

可赤司刚才的语调，却亲切地让人忍不住去拥抱。

 

如果忽略其内容是多么的残忍的话。

 

“小赤司真的很过分。”黄濑无奈地叹了一口气。视野中忽然滑过一瓣浅樱色，仿佛踩着遥远的节拍从夐古翩然而至，徘徊片刻后袅袅婷婷落于指尖。黄濑惊讶地望向窗外，正对上扑面而来的融融春光。

 

今年的樱花，开得真早。

TBC

PS：这是高考前最后一更了……沙桑来顺带求人品求祝福……

沙桑的目标是上清北线！！！加油！！！